Mad river

I would never think that my feelings would overcome me,all these contradicted and powerful,which once I would never count on.Now I have seen their power,and was rather shocked.I know I'm passing this stage and getting to another one.I'm expreincing new feelings,things that I could never imagine to think about.That's very strange for me.By the way this is my life.Sometimes I feel that it's like a mad river,and sometimes so calm!Maybe I can never say whether I'm satisfied with my life or not.Still I am confused.