The effects of an author

I feel much more better tonight,but still gloomy and think of Sadegh Hedayat.I can't really understand him,I can't get why he was so cruel to his characters,maybe he felt that life is cruel to him,and it's the way it goes more I think about him,the less I get the reason of his mood,thoughts and philosophy he choosed for his life I need to appreciate him,because he gave me another vision to look at the world and consider things know the strange thing about him is that After sometime the meanings cameinto my mind and I can't stop myself thinking about the book,and trying to understand the author.Sometimes I wish I coud know him better,that he were alive and I could have a better knowledge about him.His influence and great power on me is unbelievable reading his stories,they come to ur mind and never leave you again one part of your thoughts,and ideas is how a great author can be known.