Sunday, August 12, 2007

Numb

Im just tired and thats all.It seems as if my whole existance is abstracted in thissentence."Im tired."
Tired of every thing,every day life,every day feelings,struggles,and ideas.Where can I find the hidden road to salvation?Every day I get up I hear my soul crying till when I shall cry out for a miracle,for a great lasting change in the right way?
I'm lost whithin my self and there is no sign to find the path once I was walking in so light and secure.God,sometimes I just wonder why I was deprived of that immence grace and how I came to such graduatly,hidden,and yet delibrate change. Fallen of grace,I'm searching a light to show me the way.Who am I really.I'm getting completly stranger with myself.How could I fade away so uncontiously in front of my own eyes? I am complaining alot?Do I deserve blaming myself?

2 comments:

LonelyBoy said...

نگين خانوم
سلام
اين اولين باره که وبلاگتون رو مي خونم
اول از همه مي خوام بگم از وبلاگتون خوشم اومد. همين که به انگليسي مي نويسيد خيلي برام جالبه. من زبان انگليسي رو خيلي دوست دارم. هرچند در يادگيريش جديتي به خرج ندادم. اميدوارم بتونم يه روزي مثل شما احساسمو به اين زبان بيان کنم
...
احساس مي کنم داري به خودت
سخت مي گيري. يه خورده با خودت مهربون باش
و اينکه سعي کن خودتو بهتر بشناسي. اين قدم اوله که بايد برداري
اونوقت مي توني اون جاده ي پنهان و اون نوري که اين جاده رو نمايان
مي کنه، ببيني
موفق باشي

Anonymous said...

Dear Negin,
never complain, try to make to happy and satisfied of whatever you have. Life is not that much long. It will passes in the same manner passes for the last 23 years for you. You should not blame anybody, we did not born to blame, we born to create. we are human, if we do not have wing we will make it. If we do not have foot to run like a horse we make it much faster than the horse. End of the day we are creators. The same as god. Bad, worse and worst are there, we are to choose, good better and best also there, we have the right to choose. But life is to challenge. Good luck, be happy.