Where has my heart gone?

Where has my heart gone?Once I wanted to know many things,to live deeply and differently.I prisoned my self in an endless isolation.I did not care any one,I did not trust any one,just what I wanted to be,and now...now that I feel I got what I wanted,this loneliness hurts me more than ever.I did stole my heart and put ice instead of it.How regretful I am now.I lost the peace within me,and day after day,I am more distressed.Where's the way back to life?Where's the way back to hope?Where's the way back to light.I feel I've lost the way as soon as I lost my heart.
I made all that delighting childhood innocence remove from me,to be matured in analyzing and getting to know this world.It was the big mistake of my life was wrong,I was mistaken,but I got it,when it was so late,so late.