How can I ignore?

I feel so sad and gloomy again that I feel all the clouds of the world are crying within me.How many different things may happen and to what strange results they may be led to.Day are just the very same as each other,nights boring and cruel.How weary I feel.It seems the happiness is sucked out of me.Why do I feel so again?
I don't know what to say again.All the endless proud lines of words are ended,and I'm left alone by the passionate desire of writting.Heavens help me,how hard is these days for me.I feel I've been acting so selfishly,I can hardly stand here,this society,these people.And worst than all,tolerating such sorrow and pain is being impossible.This heavy burden on my shoulders is getting more and more see no reason to continue,no light in life,no happiness in smiles ugly face of the lies hurt me.How can I ignore them?