The wish

I could never stop the feelings inside of me as I could never get to know my self .I'm getting to lost all my words,all my confidence about the correctness of my ideas.I just feel that every thing around me is collapsing,and I've lost all control over things.I'm becoming so bitter,in a way I never used to be,I don't know,I just want to leave every thing,my feelings are unchanged and I still think that I can't go on living like this.To have nothing to fight for,no real motivation,and I see that I'm fighting hardly,but for what?I can not find the answer.Here,in the limbo where I'm presented,and condemned in,I'm deprived of the happiness and peace.I want to leave here,I want to be free again,as a new born child,I want to taste water again,I want ot touch the old breeze of spring on my face,feel released,and grateful of having a full life.By days smiling in sunshine,with dreams of pure sky,immense happiness.Dear God,what a perfect life it could be.My Lord,what would happen if we could reach our wishes?