Being 21.

At least I got 21 years old.The age which I was looking for so much,like children's passionate waiting for the candies of the new year there is some thing happened in me,that my feelings that once were the most close and kind to me,are far and untranslatable.I can't feel or recognize them any more.It seems as if we are two unfamiliar different things.I don't know what's happened in me,some thing is changed,some thing has left me,and I can feel it's empty place.I wish I could bring it back,or at least find it's shadow,any thing which has an address of it.I don't know what's wrong with this people,in this society.Every one just thinks about it's own advantages,the values which once were respected by life are being forgotten,the myths,the root's,the old dear things.I don't know what to say more,there are many things,wish to be said,and conveyed,many ideas need to be shared,but when the time comes,they all get silent and still,the wild flood stops suddenly and leaves me shocked and helpless,what can be done to them?